So, we made it through our first dual-family Christmas! It was crazy, hectic, busy, exhausting, and every other synonym -- but I wouldn't have changed one minute of it! I loved being able to share my favorite time of the year with Zach. I loved that he was able to be with all of my family and that I was able to show him off!! I also really enjoyed being included in his family's events. I also still love being introduced as "fiance" =) It was a somewhat mind-boggling moment when his sister reminded us that by next Christmas, we would be married. I am so excited and in such awe at the amazing things that are happening in my life right now.
This time off from school has been so refreshing. I am glad to have another whole week before I need to return to work. I am still hoping that this time off will rejuvenate my soul and my spirit so that I can come back to work with the same sense of purpose that I began this school year with. I am also hoping that with the help of my TFA boss, I will be able to change some of my mentalities so that I can take value in "small wins" and appreciate the small changes that I am making, instead of purely focusing on the overwhelming mountain that I am attempting to climb in such a short period of time.
Speaking of climbing a huge mountain -- I have taken on another personal mountain to climb. On March 21, 2010 I will attempt my first half marathon. Today is my first official day of training. Yesterday, Coach Olsen took me to the track for a time trial. He needed to see where I was starting in order to create a personal training plan for me. For my future reference -- I completed a mile in 9:36. I am hoping that by the time I complete my half marathon, I will be able to laugh at that time -- because yesterday I was somewhat embarrassed at the shape I am in. Well, you have to start somewhere! And I guess the worse you are, the better you can get, right?! I am excited about this new challenge.. and I DO mean CHALLENGE. I'll keep you posted!!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
A whirlwind...
These past six weeks have been a complete whirlwind, which is why it has been so long since my last update! My apologies!!
The biggest news since my last update?? I got engaged, of course! I could not be happier, and was beyond surprised when it happened.
In the last few weeks, we have also attended my sister Kristi's debutante ball (always an interesting experience), attended Zach's company Christmas party, shopped for a new ring, hosted our first potluck dinner, I completed my first semester as a high school teacher (BIG accomplishment -- I can barely believe I made it), and now we have begun making wedding plans.
The plans are limited so far. I have come home to Birmingham and Mom, Kristi and I spent yesterday exploring two reception sites, as well as making a trip to our first bridal salon! I couldn't believe I was actually trying on wedding dresses. The both of them teared up when they put a veil on my head. I was mostly just in shock still. There were a few dresses there I really loved, but I wanted to give myself plenty of time to look and think about. This is, of course, the time in my life I have been dreaming about for years, so I see no reason to rush it!!
Zach is on his way to Birmingham this morning. This will be our first time ever trying to split up Christmas (and other holidays). It will be interesting trying to see everyone and be everywhere that we are supposed to be, but I hope family will be understanding. I am just loving every minute of our life right now. It is so exciting that to think in just barely any time I will be his wife.
This is all I have for now - I probably could have written more but I am out of blogging-shape! I vow to update more often though!!
The biggest news since my last update?? I got engaged, of course! I could not be happier, and was beyond surprised when it happened.
In the last few weeks, we have also attended my sister Kristi's debutante ball (always an interesting experience), attended Zach's company Christmas party, shopped for a new ring, hosted our first potluck dinner, I completed my first semester as a high school teacher (BIG accomplishment -- I can barely believe I made it), and now we have begun making wedding plans.
The plans are limited so far. I have come home to Birmingham and Mom, Kristi and I spent yesterday exploring two reception sites, as well as making a trip to our first bridal salon! I couldn't believe I was actually trying on wedding dresses. The both of them teared up when they put a veil on my head. I was mostly just in shock still. There were a few dresses there I really loved, but I wanted to give myself plenty of time to look and think about. This is, of course, the time in my life I have been dreaming about for years, so I see no reason to rush it!!
Zach is on his way to Birmingham this morning. This will be our first time ever trying to split up Christmas (and other holidays). It will be interesting trying to see everyone and be everywhere that we are supposed to be, but I hope family will be understanding. I am just loving every minute of our life right now. It is so exciting that to think in just barely any time I will be his wife.
This is all I have for now - I probably could have written more but I am out of blogging-shape! I vow to update more often though!!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I'm thankful for...
In all the difficulties, I have been reminded by multiple people to think of the things I am thankful for and things that are good in my life.
My list for today:
1. My amazing family.
2. I have someone who loves me and care for me and supports me even when I am cranky and crazy (a fairly regular occurence these days!)
3.I have a job.
4. I have a new car (that heats up in the winter and starts when I want it to!)
5. Christmas music that raises my spirit during my planning time.
6. I have amazing friends between my Auburn girls and my TFA ladies who keep me sane, with notes of encouragement, dinner between classes, and reminders that I am here for a reason, even if I don't know it yet.
7. The book "Come Thirsty" by Max Lucado. It has given me a lot of things to think about and remind myself of.
8. We are taking another trip to the cabin this weekend.
9. I am only 19 days away from my Thanksgiving break, something I will be VERY thankful for!
10. It's almost time to put up my first Christmas tree in my first grown-up apartment -- such a special time!!
My list for today:
1. My amazing family.
2. I have someone who loves me and care for me and supports me even when I am cranky and crazy (a fairly regular occurence these days!)
3.I have a job.
4. I have a new car (that heats up in the winter and starts when I want it to!)
5. Christmas music that raises my spirit during my planning time.
6. I have amazing friends between my Auburn girls and my TFA ladies who keep me sane, with notes of encouragement, dinner between classes, and reminders that I am here for a reason, even if I don't know it yet.
7. The book "Come Thirsty" by Max Lucado. It has given me a lot of things to think about and remind myself of.
8. We are taking another trip to the cabin this weekend.
9. I am only 19 days away from my Thanksgiving break, something I will be VERY thankful for!
10. It's almost time to put up my first Christmas tree in my first grown-up apartment -- such a special time!!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Oops!!
The blog accidentally deleted part of my post...
On the way home from NC, we stopped by one of the greatest attractions in world history.. GOATS ON THE ROOF! This is the funniest little place -- they have things like boiled peanuts and homemade ice creams and jams, and just like the name ... they have goats on their roof! There are little feed stations where you can buy goat food to feed them. Mostly you feed them by putting the feed in these little buckets and sending it up to the roof, but luckily for us we found a few goats on the ground level. They ate out of our hands!!!! It was the funniest thing.. Please excuse the ridiculous laughing that you hear on the video -- he was tickling me and I couldn't stop laughing.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
The past few weeks...
So it has been a while since I updated the blog, but lots of things have been going on!
This weekend, was one word: AMAZING. Thanks to God (and to the Olsens!) for an amazing weekend at the Olsen's cabin in North Carolina. It was the most beautiful and restful weekend I have had in I-don't-know how long. We went up on Friday night and it was gross and rainy and there was fog everywhere. However, Satuday and Sunday made up for it. The weather was GORGEOUS and I loved it. Some of the pictures from the weekend:This is the cute Sweet Shop that we visited in-town at Highlands on Saturday:
First, we got a Wii!!! I am so excited!
((So, Zach didn't know that I was filming him while he was playing. But it was just so cute, I had to add it. This is him doing the boxing workout that I made -- that he didn't believe was as difficult as I said it was. The next day, he was complaining about how much his forearms hurt... HA! I wish I knew how to turn it the right way..))
Last weekend, we ventured to Auburn for the Kentucky game. Even though we lost, and it was FREEZING cold, I had such a good time seeing my sister, my extended family, and the rest of the Auburn family! Here are a few pictures from the weekend...
This weekend, was one word: AMAZING. Thanks to God (and to the Olsens!) for an amazing weekend at the Olsen's cabin in North Carolina. It was the most beautiful and restful weekend I have had in I-don't-know how long. We went up on Friday night and it was gross and rainy and there was fog everywhere. However, Satuday and Sunday made up for it. The weather was GORGEOUS and I loved it. Some of the pictures from the weekend:This is the cute Sweet Shop that we visited in-town at Highlands on Saturday: 
MMMMMMmmmmm it was SO DELICIOUS!!! Candied apple covered in caramel and drizzled in chocolate -- a little slice of heaven!!
Also, here are some pictures of all of the amazing scenery we saw. I'm telling you, this place restores my soul. Not only was it great to turn off the phone and the computer for a weekend, not thinking about work or classes or anything. But to also be in such a gorgeous place -- God was speaking to me all weekend..
Like I said, it was gorgeous. As cheesy as it sounds, I saw God in so many places. I don't know about Zach, but I needed this so much. We both spent time reading, enjoying each other and being peaceful. I am so thankful for the time that I had at this cabin. I wish I knew how to repay his parents for the gift that they gave me and us. I hope I will be able to carry that peace with me throughout this week at school.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
What a weekend!
This weekend has been so much fun! I had a super rough week, so I think Zach really wanted to make it a fun one. (I also thinks he may be trying to make up for the fact that he is going to Chicago for most of this week and I will be all alone!!)
Friday night we decided to try out Martinis and IMAX at the Fernbank Museum with Lauren and Elliott. It was a cool little thing. Although we didn't go see the IMAX (sad day for me), there was a band and I had a good time. It was nice to try something different instead of the same usual places that we go out.
Saturday we watched football for most of the afternoon (such a sad loss) and then we went to the Cumming FAIR! We met Jenn and Ryan and I had so much fun. I think we were a little too excited and we did a few rides too quickly. Both Zach and I started to feel a little queezy.. So then of course we had to play a few games and win a few prizes, and I absolutely had to eat a funnel cake. ( I always want one when we go to see the Braves, but theres only one funnel cake vendor and Zach usually doesn't want to go find him. ) I really had so so so much fun. After that, we went to Taco Mac to watch the LSU/UF game. All in all, it was a really nice weekend. 
I plan on spending today catching up with laundry and cleaning, running some errands, and working on all the homework that is due this week at GSU. It's fall break for our students, so Monday and Tuesday I will be in "professional development." I am thankful for the small break, even if I really wish that we got the time off too!
Last but not least, here are the pictures of my beautiful new car, Winston!! =) Yes, I know the name is a little silly, but I had to follow the trend after having a car named Lola. I am really enjoying this car -- so thankful to have a job and the ability to do the things that we are able to do.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
"Will you braid my hair for food stamps?"
Quote of the day. From one of the crazy gen.ed. students in one of my inclusion classes. I did well just to keep a straight face =)
Things are incredibly stressful and overwhelming right now. I am now supposed to be teaching 9th grade math, 9th grade english, 10th grade math, and 10th grade english. To say I am overwhelmed or stressed is an extreme understatement. I am hoping to meet with my principal/PEC program assistant within the next week to tell them my concerns. I can't keep going like this right now. Its not what TFA wants me to be doing, its not really what my principal wants me to be doing, and its not what I want to be doing either. Things have got to change. But I'm going to make it happen.
I have also decided that I am going to post more about my real life instead of just teaching. Because often, teaching is stressful or frustrating and I am not being as positive as I am in real life. I found out today (really about five minutes ago) that I have been accepted as a member of the Corps Member Development Committee. Its a Sponsor-A-Teacher program where corporations that donate to TFA are matched up with a specific teacher so that they can put a face to where their money is going. I'm excited because it will get me more involved in TFA and may increase my opportunities post-TFA. I'll let you know more information as I learn more, but it sounds promising.
Zach and I are often exhausted, but we are really enjoying living in the same city again. Atlanta has so many things for us to do. This weekend we are hoping to go to the Atlanta food festival (Taste of Atlanta) and possibly the fair too! After watching the Arkansas game, obviously!
Graduate school is going. I don't really feel like I learn very much in my classes, but they are still fairly difficult, mostly because of the amount of work that is expected in my three classes. I am definitely glad that I will have a Master's, but sometimes I really wish that I had the extra time to do work for school, to be after school for tutoring, etc. Although its a nice time to be able to update my blog (shhh!!! )
I love my new car, I promise I will post pictures as soon as I take them. Probably this weekend. I also bought a Wii on Ebay this week, so I am eagerly anticipating its arrival! I loved working out with Mom's Wii Active, so I am hoping that it will encourage me to work out more. Unfortunately, because I am so tired and worn out by the time I get home from school or school and class, its difficult for me to be motivated to work out. However, I think I am going to decide on a half-marathon to sign up for, pay the money, etc. to also help motivate me. I know that running or working out can actually really make me feel better, I just have to make myself get there.
In case you're wondering, its 79 days until Christmas. So 48 days until Thanksgiving. But honestly, who is counting?!
Things are incredibly stressful and overwhelming right now. I am now supposed to be teaching 9th grade math, 9th grade english, 10th grade math, and 10th grade english. To say I am overwhelmed or stressed is an extreme understatement. I am hoping to meet with my principal/PEC program assistant within the next week to tell them my concerns. I can't keep going like this right now. Its not what TFA wants me to be doing, its not really what my principal wants me to be doing, and its not what I want to be doing either. Things have got to change. But I'm going to make it happen.
I have also decided that I am going to post more about my real life instead of just teaching. Because often, teaching is stressful or frustrating and I am not being as positive as I am in real life. I found out today (really about five minutes ago) that I have been accepted as a member of the Corps Member Development Committee. Its a Sponsor-A-Teacher program where corporations that donate to TFA are matched up with a specific teacher so that they can put a face to where their money is going. I'm excited because it will get me more involved in TFA and may increase my opportunities post-TFA. I'll let you know more information as I learn more, but it sounds promising.
Zach and I are often exhausted, but we are really enjoying living in the same city again. Atlanta has so many things for us to do. This weekend we are hoping to go to the Atlanta food festival (Taste of Atlanta) and possibly the fair too! After watching the Arkansas game, obviously!
Graduate school is going. I don't really feel like I learn very much in my classes, but they are still fairly difficult, mostly because of the amount of work that is expected in my three classes. I am definitely glad that I will have a Master's, but sometimes I really wish that I had the extra time to do work for school, to be after school for tutoring, etc. Although its a nice time to be able to update my blog (shhh!!! )
I love my new car, I promise I will post pictures as soon as I take them. Probably this weekend. I also bought a Wii on Ebay this week, so I am eagerly anticipating its arrival! I loved working out with Mom's Wii Active, so I am hoping that it will encourage me to work out more. Unfortunately, because I am so tired and worn out by the time I get home from school or school and class, its difficult for me to be motivated to work out. However, I think I am going to decide on a half-marathon to sign up for, pay the money, etc. to also help motivate me. I know that running or working out can actually really make me feel better, I just have to make myself get there.
In case you're wondering, its 79 days until Christmas. So 48 days until Thanksgiving. But honestly, who is counting?!
Monday, October 5, 2009
For Emily...
I thought I would do an Emily-esque post. Tonight I attempted a new chili recipe -- it turned out really good!!! I'm including pictures and the recipe for anyone interested -- we will be eating our left-overs for days!
1 lb ground beef
1 tablespoon olive oil
2 medium chopped onions
2 teaspoons finely chopped garlic
2 cups Green Giant Valley Fresh Steamers Niblets frozen corn
1 bag frozen broccoli, carrots and cauliflower
1 can kidney beans drained and rinsed
1 can chick peas drained and rinsed
2 cans diced tomatoes with green chiles, undrained
1 can tomato sauce
2 tablespoons chili powder
3 teaspoons ground cumin
3/4 teaspoon salt
1/8 teaspoon ground red pepper
1. Brown beef, drain and rinse.
2. Heat oil over mediu-high heat, add onions and garlic, cook 4-5 mintues stirring frequently.
3. Stir in remaining ingredients, heat to boiling, reduce heat to medium low, cover and cook 15-20 minutes, stirring occassionally.
Oh! and I also made cornbread, because whats chili without cornbread?! unfortunately, Zach has no muffin tins so i had to improvise...
Monday, September 28, 2009
Today's quote of the day is perfect:
"People see God every day, they just don't recognize him."
I think today that God realized I was struggling with feeling frustrated and overwhelmed. They have added students to my caseload, so after all the work I have done to get a perfect schedule for my students and myself so that I am helping them as much as I can (and as much as they need) -- now thats kind of all gone down the toilet. I am now expected to be in at least three different places at once for just about each block every day. I am trying to figure out how I am going to handle that...
Anyway, God saw I was upset. So today, He sent one of the students to me to remind me that I am actually accomplishing things at this school. Q, my student who was such a behavior issue for so long, walked in my class last period today to give me a hug. I literally could have cried. I said, what was that for?! And he said, I just wanted to say hello.
Thanks, God. =) I needed that reminder.
I never realized how much paperwork was involved in this job. It's more than ridiculous. Thankfully, I am just about caught up. At least until they add new students to my caseload or something else crazy!
I am meeting with my PD tomorrow -- the behavior issues at my school that I am always talking about are so out of control that I cant even teach. I am hoping she will have some suggestions. Plus, she just makes me feel better about myself and the job I'm doing. Not that other people don't say nice things about me or what I'm doing, but I respect her so much and I know she knows what she is talking about, so it means more.
School is still overwhelming, but life outside of work is great. Still taking it one day at a time, and reminding myself that this will take a while. Every day is a new day, and I know that I am getting better each day.
Still, I continue to pray with every breath I take...
I think today that God realized I was struggling with feeling frustrated and overwhelmed. They have added students to my caseload, so after all the work I have done to get a perfect schedule for my students and myself so that I am helping them as much as I can (and as much as they need) -- now thats kind of all gone down the toilet. I am now expected to be in at least three different places at once for just about each block every day. I am trying to figure out how I am going to handle that...
Anyway, God saw I was upset. So today, He sent one of the students to me to remind me that I am actually accomplishing things at this school. Q, my student who was such a behavior issue for so long, walked in my class last period today to give me a hug. I literally could have cried. I said, what was that for?! And he said, I just wanted to say hello.
Thanks, God. =) I needed that reminder.
I never realized how much paperwork was involved in this job. It's more than ridiculous. Thankfully, I am just about caught up. At least until they add new students to my caseload or something else crazy!
I am meeting with my PD tomorrow -- the behavior issues at my school that I am always talking about are so out of control that I cant even teach. I am hoping she will have some suggestions. Plus, she just makes me feel better about myself and the job I'm doing. Not that other people don't say nice things about me or what I'm doing, but I respect her so much and I know she knows what she is talking about, so it means more.
School is still overwhelming, but life outside of work is great. Still taking it one day at a time, and reminding myself that this will take a while. Every day is a new day, and I know that I am getting better each day.
Still, I continue to pray with every breath I take...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
long overdue!
So this post is long overdue, as I haven't updated in over two weeks!
The last two weeks have been quite the roller coaster of emotions. After labor day, I spent the next week in and out of school, sick with what I am almost certain was strep throat. Monday, we had no school. Tuesday, I made it to school for my advisory (from 8-9) and then was sent home after that. Wednesday I didn't even try to go to school because I still had a fever. Thursday I was able to last the entire day and Friday I had to leave at lunch. It will be unfortunate when I get my paycheck tomorrow because I have not been here long enough to earn any sick days, so I will merely be docked pay =( However, there was nothing I could do about it. Not only did I not want to be at school to make anyone else sick, but I was also completely unable to do any real work or help at all because I felt so terrible! I am feeling much better now, although my sore throat still has not fully covered.
Oh! So the one day that I was at school that week, our team leader Ms. C was home sick. Apparently she has quite the presence in the 9th grade hall, because we had three flat out brawls while she was out. One was two boys, one was two girls, and one was a boy and a girl. It was ridiculous!! Somehow, during two of the fights, I found myself almost directly in the middle of them despite my attempts at staying away. The other fight, I was herding children back into the rooms (of course, they want to see all the action), and while I was doing that took an elbow to the face. For Lumumba: This is why I Teach for America! =)
This week, again, has been quite a mix of emotions. Tuesday I taught my first math class solo and Wednesday I taught my first English class solo. Both went amazingly well. I felt really good about myself afterwards! Granted, in math I bribed them with candy, but hey! At this point, I'll do whatever it takes. Honestly, they need so much training about how to behave that the candy still has to be used. My next step is to work with the teachers I co-teach with to continue to train the students to do simple things like stay in their seats, raise their hands, and not shout out!
I finally had a "moment" with a student. Let's back up. Q is one of my advisory students who has a bad attitude and a problem with following the rules. In fact, I am on him so much because of that he told one of the other teachers "Ms. MeGahee always so mean. She always on me and stuff. She always telling me what to do." Good. I'm doing my job =) He likes to get up and leave class when he gets bored, etc. He has also been suspended or in in-school suspension multiple times. Needless to say, he is a student I am trying desperately to reach. On Tuesday, I finally had a moment! In Math Support we are starting a unit on fractions and decimals, because some of them have absolutely no concept of fractions (IN HIGH SCHOOL) and therefore are being held back by that during the regular Algebra class. We were working on equivalent fractions and comparing fractions with like denominators or numerators. Anyway, as I said previously, I was bribing them left and right with candy. Raise your hand? Get a jolly rancher. Answer a question? Get a KitKat. Finish your worksheet? Get a Hershey's bar. Anything that I could reward them for, I did. Well, for the first time this entire school year, Q was completely engaged in the lesson. He was answering questions, watching the work on the board, and even raising his hand for help. It was awesome! Not only did it show me that he CAN behave, he CAN do the work, and he IS smart, I am going to keep pushing him.
Even better, on Wednesday he is also in the English class I co-teach. Ms. C was out because of a workshop, so it was all on me. The class was so much more controlled than I thought they might be (because Ms. C is so tough, I am generally perceived as the nice one, which means they don't listen to me nearly as much). Once again, Q was engaged and following along throught the lesson!!!!! And this time, there was NO CANDY! I couldn't even tell you how much it meant when I heard, "Ms. MeGahee wait! I didn't get the answer to number 5!" When normally, he would just leave it blank and not worry about it. I think I may finally be reaching him. It is very exciting.
My next step is to reach my actual PEC students. I am still trying to deal with one who refused to accept my help (I make her though, even when she wants to), and two others who are so far behind I feel lost trying to help them. They need so many basic skills -- we're talking adding and multiplying. How do you make it to this point without them? But, today I am going to buy flashcards for them and call parents to ask them to work with them. I just worry about figuring out ways to help them with the actual material they struggle so much with.
Every day is a new day. Some are good and some are bad. Lynn came to observe her student teacher and told me something I really needed to hear -- Every day is a new day and every day something good happens. Some days, it takes a lot for me to find the good. I spend most of my time feeling overwhelmed or confused. I constantly question if I should be here. But moments with students like Q remind me why. I will do this. I know I will. Baby steps..
The last two weeks have been quite the roller coaster of emotions. After labor day, I spent the next week in and out of school, sick with what I am almost certain was strep throat. Monday, we had no school. Tuesday, I made it to school for my advisory (from 8-9) and then was sent home after that. Wednesday I didn't even try to go to school because I still had a fever. Thursday I was able to last the entire day and Friday I had to leave at lunch. It will be unfortunate when I get my paycheck tomorrow because I have not been here long enough to earn any sick days, so I will merely be docked pay =( However, there was nothing I could do about it. Not only did I not want to be at school to make anyone else sick, but I was also completely unable to do any real work or help at all because I felt so terrible! I am feeling much better now, although my sore throat still has not fully covered.
Oh! So the one day that I was at school that week, our team leader Ms. C was home sick. Apparently she has quite the presence in the 9th grade hall, because we had three flat out brawls while she was out. One was two boys, one was two girls, and one was a boy and a girl. It was ridiculous!! Somehow, during two of the fights, I found myself almost directly in the middle of them despite my attempts at staying away. The other fight, I was herding children back into the rooms (of course, they want to see all the action), and while I was doing that took an elbow to the face. For Lumumba: This is why I Teach for America! =)
This week, again, has been quite a mix of emotions. Tuesday I taught my first math class solo and Wednesday I taught my first English class solo. Both went amazingly well. I felt really good about myself afterwards! Granted, in math I bribed them with candy, but hey! At this point, I'll do whatever it takes. Honestly, they need so much training about how to behave that the candy still has to be used. My next step is to work with the teachers I co-teach with to continue to train the students to do simple things like stay in their seats, raise their hands, and not shout out!
I finally had a "moment" with a student. Let's back up. Q is one of my advisory students who has a bad attitude and a problem with following the rules. In fact, I am on him so much because of that he told one of the other teachers "Ms. MeGahee always so mean. She always on me and stuff. She always telling me what to do." Good. I'm doing my job =) He likes to get up and leave class when he gets bored, etc. He has also been suspended or in in-school suspension multiple times. Needless to say, he is a student I am trying desperately to reach. On Tuesday, I finally had a moment! In Math Support we are starting a unit on fractions and decimals, because some of them have absolutely no concept of fractions (IN HIGH SCHOOL) and therefore are being held back by that during the regular Algebra class. We were working on equivalent fractions and comparing fractions with like denominators or numerators. Anyway, as I said previously, I was bribing them left and right with candy. Raise your hand? Get a jolly rancher. Answer a question? Get a KitKat. Finish your worksheet? Get a Hershey's bar. Anything that I could reward them for, I did. Well, for the first time this entire school year, Q was completely engaged in the lesson. He was answering questions, watching the work on the board, and even raising his hand for help. It was awesome! Not only did it show me that he CAN behave, he CAN do the work, and he IS smart, I am going to keep pushing him.
Even better, on Wednesday he is also in the English class I co-teach. Ms. C was out because of a workshop, so it was all on me. The class was so much more controlled than I thought they might be (because Ms. C is so tough, I am generally perceived as the nice one, which means they don't listen to me nearly as much). Once again, Q was engaged and following along throught the lesson!!!!! And this time, there was NO CANDY! I couldn't even tell you how much it meant when I heard, "Ms. MeGahee wait! I didn't get the answer to number 5!" When normally, he would just leave it blank and not worry about it. I think I may finally be reaching him. It is very exciting.
My next step is to reach my actual PEC students. I am still trying to deal with one who refused to accept my help (I make her though, even when she wants to), and two others who are so far behind I feel lost trying to help them. They need so many basic skills -- we're talking adding and multiplying. How do you make it to this point without them? But, today I am going to buy flashcards for them and call parents to ask them to work with them. I just worry about figuring out ways to help them with the actual material they struggle so much with.
Every day is a new day. Some are good and some are bad. Lynn came to observe her student teacher and told me something I really needed to hear -- Every day is a new day and every day something good happens. Some days, it takes a lot for me to find the good. I spend most of my time feeling overwhelmed or confused. I constantly question if I should be here. But moments with students like Q remind me why. I will do this. I know I will. Baby steps..
Monday, August 31, 2009
I keep waiting...
for things to get easier.
to find my place.
for things to make sense.
for those "AHA!" moments when a student understands something I explained.
for students to understand I am here to help.
for me to feel like I know what I am doing.
for me to feel like I am actually doing what I am supposed to be doing.
for PEC to become something okay, and not something stigmatized.
for my students to understand that its okay to do your work, or to like school, or to enjoy reading or writing or learning.
Today was a hard day. But then again, most of them are. Each day I feel like I have not succeeded in some way. Each day I feel like there is something else I could have said or something more I could have done. Our teacher called it the "disillusionment" phase of your first year of teaching -- when you feel like you're doing everything you can just to keep your head above water, and consistently thinking to yourself "What am I doing here?" or "What have I gotten myself into?"
I'm there. I'm so there.
to find my place.
for things to make sense.
for those "AHA!" moments when a student understands something I explained.
for students to understand I am here to help.
for me to feel like I know what I am doing.
for me to feel like I am actually doing what I am supposed to be doing.
for PEC to become something okay, and not something stigmatized.
for my students to understand that its okay to do your work, or to like school, or to enjoy reading or writing or learning.
Today was a hard day. But then again, most of them are. Each day I feel like I have not succeeded in some way. Each day I feel like there is something else I could have said or something more I could have done. Our teacher called it the "disillusionment" phase of your first year of teaching -- when you feel like you're doing everything you can just to keep your head above water, and consistently thinking to yourself "What am I doing here?" or "What have I gotten myself into?"
I'm there. I'm so there.
Friday, August 28, 2009
More and more every day I am aware of why I am here as I interact with my students. And more and more every day this system makes it more difficult for me to do my job. I have multiple students who are on a 1-3 grade reading level and with math skills on par with 1st-3rd graders. How is it fair that a student makes it to 9th grade on those levels?? I am constantly enraged at what this school system has done to my students. It is going to take everything in me to give them what they deserve. They have been abandoned by other teachers, and I have to make up for that.
These past few days have been some of the hardest. I am having difficulty with things involved in getting my Master's. I am also dealing with PEC students who do not want me to talk to them or even look at them. Some appreciate the help (at least in their own way) but I have lots of work with others to get them to understand I am not here to embarrass them but to help them. I am also having difficulty with my advisory. I came into this so excited about that chance to connect even further with students, however I am realizing how much time that is going to take. Zach often reminds me that it wasn't cool to like teachers at any other school except my nerd school. But yesterday we talked about bullying and I was completely disheartened by some of the things they said. It becomes more and more clear what different backgrounds we come from. Not to say that we have nothing in common or that we will never be able to connect, but these students live such different lives in such a different world. It breaks my heart the way that some of them think about things and view their world. I hope that I will be able to teach them something about what life can be like for them.
A few years ago in church we learned about "breath prayers." Mine lately has become "God grant me the serenity." It is first a request for peace of mind and secondly a reminder to myself of the full prayer which tells me to have courage to change what I can and most importantly lately the wisdom to know the difference.
These past few days have been some of the hardest. I am having difficulty with things involved in getting my Master's. I am also dealing with PEC students who do not want me to talk to them or even look at them. Some appreciate the help (at least in their own way) but I have lots of work with others to get them to understand I am not here to embarrass them but to help them. I am also having difficulty with my advisory. I came into this so excited about that chance to connect even further with students, however I am realizing how much time that is going to take. Zach often reminds me that it wasn't cool to like teachers at any other school except my nerd school. But yesterday we talked about bullying and I was completely disheartened by some of the things they said. It becomes more and more clear what different backgrounds we come from. Not to say that we have nothing in common or that we will never be able to connect, but these students live such different lives in such a different world. It breaks my heart the way that some of them think about things and view their world. I hope that I will be able to teach them something about what life can be like for them.
A few years ago in church we learned about "breath prayers." Mine lately has become "God grant me the serenity." It is first a request for peace of mind and secondly a reminder to myself of the full prayer which tells me to have courage to change what I can and most importantly lately the wisdom to know the difference.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
"Man, this the slow class.."
Today I pulled my ninth graders out of their math support class in order to give them a diagnostic to determine their strengths and weaknesses. One of them told me the quote I used as the title. Mind you, the "Math Support" class is already a class for students who are weak in math and get recommended for it by their 8th grade math teachers. I wanted to respond, that's a slow class too, but I refrained. I can understand not wanting to be called out from a class. However, I did it in the most discreet way possible. Instead of letting the students begin class in the room and then going to get them, I asked the teacher to send them to me as soon as he saw them in the hall. I understand they don't want to be seen as different, or slow, or whatever they or the other kids say. I explained to them my reasoning behind giving them another diagnostic (I gave them one on Monday that actually didn't give me much information, except that they all failed.) I also tried to explain my role. I told them I wasn't there to embarrass them or make them feel bad -- my job was to help them in any way that I could. I told them I only wanted to get them so smart that they beat all the other students when it came time to take our End of Course Tests (EOCTs). Some of them are behind me. Others, I still have to convince.
I also sent a student to time out today. I didn't know what else to do. He repeatedly disobeyed me. So I told him if he would act like an adult I would treat him like one, but until then I would treat him like the elementary school student he was acting like. I would like to think that it set some sort of tone. I'm worried it will just backfire. He told me I wouldn't have to worry about him talking in my class anymore because he was going to get switched out of my advisory. We'll see about that. I can't imagine that they would let him switch, but I have seen crazier things happen already this year.
I am working on a way to really invest my advisees in our class. So far, they are bored and unengaged. I have to keep reminding myself that it is only the second week of school. I guess I was pretty cocky thinking that I would immediately be beloved by all! I know it will get better. I remind myself of it every day. Two days until the weekend, and tomorrow is payday (*hopefully* -- if they got my paperwork in town. If not, I have $7 to my name until Labor Day).
I also sent a student to time out today. I didn't know what else to do. He repeatedly disobeyed me. So I told him if he would act like an adult I would treat him like one, but until then I would treat him like the elementary school student he was acting like. I would like to think that it set some sort of tone. I'm worried it will just backfire. He told me I wouldn't have to worry about him talking in my class anymore because he was going to get switched out of my advisory. We'll see about that. I can't imagine that they would let him switch, but I have seen crazier things happen already this year.
I am working on a way to really invest my advisees in our class. So far, they are bored and unengaged. I have to keep reminding myself that it is only the second week of school. I guess I was pretty cocky thinking that I would immediately be beloved by all! I know it will get better. I remind myself of it every day. Two days until the weekend, and tomorrow is payday (*hopefully* -- if they got my paperwork in town. If not, I have $7 to my name until Labor Day).
Monday, August 17, 2009
I feel like I am praying with every breath I take...
I don't even know what to post. Things have gotten better since the first day, but today was a pretty rough day. I'm trying to stay positive, especially since I know it will ONLY get harder. I finally got my own classroom and a 9th grade advisory (like a homeroom but I get to do some more fun stuff with them -- potentially). The 9th graders are an interesting mix. Some of them are eager, some of them are so lazy and negative I want to smack them. The point of advisory is to be fun. We have somewhat of a curriculum, but its things like relationship building and peer pressure and dating and those kinds of things. All the stuff I loved about being a Camp Counselor. Unfortunately, I haven't one my kids over yet. Its early in the morning and they would rather be quiet and bored than do any of my activities with me. I am going to have to get creative in motivating them.
I am consistently frustrated by the system here. So much for walking the walk. I am getting plenty of lessons in patience and figuring out what I do and don't have control over.
The 9th grade class reads on average at the level of a 5th grader. So far 2 are actually on a 9th grade level.
Today might not have been the best day to update. I know things will get better. I know I need time to get to know my advisees before they trust me enough to actually have fun. I know I need time to gain the trust of the teachers, too. I'm just impatient. About so many things in my life right now.
I am consistently frustrated by the system here. So much for walking the walk. I am getting plenty of lessons in patience and figuring out what I do and don't have control over.
The 9th grade class reads on average at the level of a 5th grader. So far 2 are actually on a 9th grade level.
Today might not have been the best day to update. I know things will get better. I know I need time to get to know my advisees before they trust me enough to actually have fun. I know I need time to gain the trust of the teachers, too. I'm just impatient. About so many things in my life right now.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
But can you walk the walk?
So its now t-minus 5 days until I am standing in front of my high school students, praying that they will respect me. What a mixture of excitement and terror. I am anxious to get started with something I have been thinking and praying about for so long.
I have spent the last week at APS (Atlanta Public Schools) training sessions, orientation to my school, faculty and departmental meetings, TFA training sessions and meetings with my co-teacher(s). I am initially placed as the PEC (Program for Exceptional Children -- the new way of saying Special Ed) teacher for 11th and 12th grade -- primarily working with the ELA (English Language Arts) teacher, Mrs. D. She is a no-nonsense lady who has been teaching for more than twenty years and I am excited to work with her. She has already "taken me under her wing." I also like my principal so far. Both Mrs. D and Mrs. G seem to understand the purpose and the importance of the PEC program. As per my title -- they certainly talk the talk -- I'm anxious to see if they can walk the walk.
Yesterday I was told that I may also co-teach history. At first, I was nervous. However, I felt better soon. The 11th/12th grade history teacher, who is also the grade-level team leader, is a 2nd year TFA (CM) Corps Member who was Teacher of the Year last year -- hallelujah!! I can already tell he is going to be great to work with and they will all definitely be a support team for me. I also learned that there is another 2nd year CM at my school, so I am excited to meet her as well.
All in all, this past week has been a positive experience. As the only new teacher at STEMS, and therefore the only 1st year teacher, I was worried about how I would be viewed or treated. But everyone has been so friendly so far. I am making relationships with teachers both within my grade assignment and those who aren't and also in a range of subjects. So far, I feel like I have been placed in a good situation. I know I will certainly have my challenged -- but I am in a better place than many of my peers.
Culture shocks for this week:
---metal detectors guard the doors where the students enter the school
---Mrs. D told me that of the 56 seniors, roughly half of which are girls. Of these girls, she could only think of 3 or 4 who had never been pregnant.
---I am one of two white teachers at my school. A school which I am told has no white students.
This will be interesting...
I have spent the last week at APS (Atlanta Public Schools) training sessions, orientation to my school, faculty and departmental meetings, TFA training sessions and meetings with my co-teacher(s). I am initially placed as the PEC (Program for Exceptional Children -- the new way of saying Special Ed) teacher for 11th and 12th grade -- primarily working with the ELA (English Language Arts) teacher, Mrs. D. She is a no-nonsense lady who has been teaching for more than twenty years and I am excited to work with her. She has already "taken me under her wing." I also like my principal so far. Both Mrs. D and Mrs. G seem to understand the purpose and the importance of the PEC program. As per my title -- they certainly talk the talk -- I'm anxious to see if they can walk the walk.
Yesterday I was told that I may also co-teach history. At first, I was nervous. However, I felt better soon. The 11th/12th grade history teacher, who is also the grade-level team leader, is a 2nd year TFA (CM) Corps Member who was Teacher of the Year last year -- hallelujah!! I can already tell he is going to be great to work with and they will all definitely be a support team for me. I also learned that there is another 2nd year CM at my school, so I am excited to meet her as well.
All in all, this past week has been a positive experience. As the only new teacher at STEMS, and therefore the only 1st year teacher, I was worried about how I would be viewed or treated. But everyone has been so friendly so far. I am making relationships with teachers both within my grade assignment and those who aren't and also in a range of subjects. So far, I feel like I have been placed in a good situation. I know I will certainly have my challenged -- but I am in a better place than many of my peers.
Culture shocks for this week:
---metal detectors guard the doors where the students enter the school
---Mrs. D told me that of the 56 seniors, roughly half of which are girls. Of these girls, she could only think of 3 or 4 who had never been pregnant.
---I am one of two white teachers at my school. A school which I am told has no white students.
This will be interesting...
Saturday, June 20, 2009
1st week teaching
So I have finished my first week teaching -- what a crazy week it was.
My kids are precious. They have attitudes, don't get me wrong. But they are precious. I already have so many stories about almost all of them. We have 12 kids in our class, 7 of whom are actually Special Ed. It's interesting to already be getting some practice, however its frustrating because we can't see their IEPs so we don't know what these children need to help them learn (accommodations, modifications, etc.)
My lessons have not gone very well, as a general rule. 5th grade math is a lot harder than you might think, especially since the majority of what we are learning is so second nature to a 22 year-old that I don't even know how to break it down enough to teach it to them. I plan for hours, try to come up with games or activities to get the kids engaged, but something is disconnected between what I say and what they understand. I am certainly learning a lot, though. And my lesson on Friday was finally a success, I believe. In fact, I had 3 hundreds on their exit assessments! That made me feel pretty good.
Thursday, however, was another story. One of my kids actually told me to "Go to ..." you know =). I just looked at him. I could never imagine saying that to a teacher, but this is the world I have now entered. I also had a test thrown at me -- "man, I'm not takin' no stupid test." The good thing about all of this: I have a pretty stellar teacher face and teacher voice. I certainly have room to grow in many things -- but a raised eyebrow does wonders for getting a kid's attention.
The biggest highlight of the week (and the moment that runs through my head when I am exhausted at 3 in the morning still lesson planning or when a kid is refusing to take a test):
One of our students, R (for privacy and such we can't say their names) was the first of our students to make a one hundred on an exit assessment. We had already decided that we would have a "Hundred Club" and that any student who received a 100 would get a medal/badge thing and they would get a standing ovation from the class. We wanted to make it a really big deal and make them see that it was cool and exciting to get a 100, not dumb. Anyway -- on Wednesday morning we were able to tell the class about our Hundred Club. You should have seen how excited the kids got when they found out about it. (especially since if you get in the Hundred Club, you get FIVE "I Can" coins -- our token reward system. As my co-teacher said, "Can you imagine, that at 8:31 and 16 seconds, you could already have FIVE COINS?!" To which the entire class gasped!) So then we told them -- we already have our first member of the Hundred Club. They freaked! So of course we built up the excitement to telling them who it was. When we finally called R's name -- I cannot even express in words this child's face. He looked at us in complete and utter surprise. He looked around the room at all four teachers and was so stunned he didn't know what to do. My co-teacher Erin (Ms. Johnson) told him to come up and receive his prize.. and he just looked at us. He turned to me and said, "Is it really me??" I could have cried. I actually think that all four of us started to tear up watching his face. For the rest of the day, he would come up to me and say "Ms. MeGahee, look! I'm gonna get another hundred. I really am!" He was so proud.
This child has completely stolen my heart. When we observed the class last week (when the real teachers were teaching), he had to be consistently separated from the class because he has some behavior issues that keep him from working with others. However -- that is beginning to change. We had a talk about how he was a role model for the class now because he was the Hundred Man (I don't know why I called him that, but he loves it). Anyway, we are working on his behavior and now he sits with the class just like everyone else. He has also gotten a 100 every day since Wednesday. So last week, he got three in a row, and we already know he will be getting one on Monday. He told me Friday his goal was to get 10 in a row!
I could probably talk for a very long time about all my kids -- there is C who is so smart but so easily frustrated and quick to give up. I am trying to figure out how to keep him motivated even if he doesn't get a 100. Then there is K, who doesn't think its cool to be smart -- so even though he knows the answers and knows the skills, he doesn't do the work on his assessments. However, Friday he received a 100 on my assessment -- I can't wait to show him and make a big deal about him so that he will see its okay to be smart and do well -- in fact its cool.
Then there's T, who has been so beaten up by the fact that he is Special Ed he doesn't even want to try his work. I think he is so afraid of failing he just doesn't even attempt it. We haven't figured out a way to motivate him -- when I told him he had received a 100 in reading so he could do it in math too, he told me "Man, I'm just not good at math." When I told him he needed to do the work so he could pass and go to 6th grade, he told me "I don't want to go to 6th grade." Pray for him and pray for us trying to reach him. I know he has it in him -- I wish I knew how to motivate him and get him invested in school.
That's probably the over-arching theme of this class. Our kids just don't think they can do things. So most of the time that means they don't even try. If I had a nickel for every time this week that I heard "I don't know how to do this" I wouldn't have to worry about finding money to pay for an apartment!
Things are going well. I'm often exhausted and frustrated, mostly at myself and at this system that lets kids get to this point, but I know that I am learning a lot and that I am slowly reaching these kids. Hopefully, lesson planning will get easier with more practice so I'll have time to update this more frequently. Cross your fingers!!
My kids are precious. They have attitudes, don't get me wrong. But they are precious. I already have so many stories about almost all of them. We have 12 kids in our class, 7 of whom are actually Special Ed. It's interesting to already be getting some practice, however its frustrating because we can't see their IEPs so we don't know what these children need to help them learn (accommodations, modifications, etc.)
My lessons have not gone very well, as a general rule. 5th grade math is a lot harder than you might think, especially since the majority of what we are learning is so second nature to a 22 year-old that I don't even know how to break it down enough to teach it to them. I plan for hours, try to come up with games or activities to get the kids engaged, but something is disconnected between what I say and what they understand. I am certainly learning a lot, though. And my lesson on Friday was finally a success, I believe. In fact, I had 3 hundreds on their exit assessments! That made me feel pretty good.
Thursday, however, was another story. One of my kids actually told me to "Go to ..." you know =). I just looked at him. I could never imagine saying that to a teacher, but this is the world I have now entered. I also had a test thrown at me -- "man, I'm not takin' no stupid test." The good thing about all of this: I have a pretty stellar teacher face and teacher voice. I certainly have room to grow in many things -- but a raised eyebrow does wonders for getting a kid's attention.
The biggest highlight of the week (and the moment that runs through my head when I am exhausted at 3 in the morning still lesson planning or when a kid is refusing to take a test):
One of our students, R (for privacy and such we can't say their names) was the first of our students to make a one hundred on an exit assessment. We had already decided that we would have a "Hundred Club" and that any student who received a 100 would get a medal/badge thing and they would get a standing ovation from the class. We wanted to make it a really big deal and make them see that it was cool and exciting to get a 100, not dumb. Anyway -- on Wednesday morning we were able to tell the class about our Hundred Club. You should have seen how excited the kids got when they found out about it. (especially since if you get in the Hundred Club, you get FIVE "I Can" coins -- our token reward system. As my co-teacher said, "Can you imagine, that at 8:31 and 16 seconds, you could already have FIVE COINS?!" To which the entire class gasped!) So then we told them -- we already have our first member of the Hundred Club. They freaked! So of course we built up the excitement to telling them who it was. When we finally called R's name -- I cannot even express in words this child's face. He looked at us in complete and utter surprise. He looked around the room at all four teachers and was so stunned he didn't know what to do. My co-teacher Erin (Ms. Johnson) told him to come up and receive his prize.. and he just looked at us. He turned to me and said, "Is it really me??" I could have cried. I actually think that all four of us started to tear up watching his face. For the rest of the day, he would come up to me and say "Ms. MeGahee, look! I'm gonna get another hundred. I really am!" He was so proud.
This child has completely stolen my heart. When we observed the class last week (when the real teachers were teaching), he had to be consistently separated from the class because he has some behavior issues that keep him from working with others. However -- that is beginning to change. We had a talk about how he was a role model for the class now because he was the Hundred Man (I don't know why I called him that, but he loves it). Anyway, we are working on his behavior and now he sits with the class just like everyone else. He has also gotten a 100 every day since Wednesday. So last week, he got three in a row, and we already know he will be getting one on Monday. He told me Friday his goal was to get 10 in a row!
I could probably talk for a very long time about all my kids -- there is C who is so smart but so easily frustrated and quick to give up. I am trying to figure out how to keep him motivated even if he doesn't get a 100. Then there is K, who doesn't think its cool to be smart -- so even though he knows the answers and knows the skills, he doesn't do the work on his assessments. However, Friday he received a 100 on my assessment -- I can't wait to show him and make a big deal about him so that he will see its okay to be smart and do well -- in fact its cool.
Then there's T, who has been so beaten up by the fact that he is Special Ed he doesn't even want to try his work. I think he is so afraid of failing he just doesn't even attempt it. We haven't figured out a way to motivate him -- when I told him he had received a 100 in reading so he could do it in math too, he told me "Man, I'm just not good at math." When I told him he needed to do the work so he could pass and go to 6th grade, he told me "I don't want to go to 6th grade." Pray for him and pray for us trying to reach him. I know he has it in him -- I wish I knew how to motivate him and get him invested in school.
That's probably the over-arching theme of this class. Our kids just don't think they can do things. So most of the time that means they don't even try. If I had a nickel for every time this week that I heard "I don't know how to do this" I wouldn't have to worry about finding money to pay for an apartment!
Things are going well. I'm often exhausted and frustrated, mostly at myself and at this system that lets kids get to this point, but I know that I am learning a lot and that I am slowly reaching these kids. Hopefully, lesson planning will get easier with more practice so I'll have time to update this more frequently. Cross your fingers!!
Sunday, June 14, 2009
One week down!
So I finally have the time to update everything that has happened in the past week. I have honestly never been so exhausted in my entire life. We go from about 5:30 in the morning to at least about 11 every night -- usually later though. It has been crazy and quite a roller coaster of emotions.
Monday I will teach my first lesson to kids! For the summer, we are placed in teams of four teachers who are responsible for one summer school class. Our class is fifth graders who failed both the math and the reading parts of the CRCT (the test in GA that determines if you move to the next grade) so our job is to teach them as much as we can in essentially 18 days so that they will be able to pass the test. No pressure! The first two weeks I will be team teaching math for 45 minutes each day and the last two weeks I will teach reading every other day for 90 minutes. Fortunately, I really like my other team teachers and we get along pretty well. I have already heard some horror stories that some of my new friends have experienced with their team.
As far as adult supervision, each team has two main advisers. Our CMA, or Corps Member Advisor, is our advisor on the TFA side. They all have at least two years under their belt, and some have more. My CMA Brooke is great -- so much more approachable than I imagined in the beginning. We also have an FA, or Faculty Advisor, who represents the Atlanta Public Schools. They have been teaching our kids for the past week and they are in the room observing us all day every day, and they are the ones who are legally responsible for the class. Our FA was actually an Atlanta corps member in 2000, so she is all about TFA!
I am being tested and tried more than ever in terms of my flexibility. My classroom was switched, my teaching assignment was switched, and then my specific lessons were switched after I had already planned them. Let's just say, I have cried a lot this week and been frustrated beyond belief. But I am trying to keep positive. It's not always easy when you're runnin on empty though.
So tomorrow, we conquer fractions and word problems. It is amazing to me how difficult it is to teach 5th grade. You think it can't be that hard, because it is all basic information at this point. The problem is that it is so basic that I don't even know how to explain how to do some things! I mean, I know how to simplify a fraction -- but what are the rules for why you do that? And what is the process? It's quite a challenge!
Speaking of challenges -- my sweet kids are so far behind. We did reading assessments last week for them, and even though I knew what I should expect it still surprised me. My 5th graders are on kindergarten and first grade reading levels. So even if they can do the math involved in a word problem, they don't have the skills to comprehend what the question is asking them to do. It will certainly be interesting.
That's about all for right now. I am excited and a little bit terrified for tomorrow when I actually stand up and am in charge of a classroom. Who knew that a bunch of 5th graders could be so intimidating?? I'll be excited when making a lesson plan doesn't take me 4 hours. And when I can get my rough draft of my lesson plan back without it being highlighted all over with things to change. Oh well. Baby steps =)
Never has the phrase "Taking it one day at a time" meant so much to me. Here we go...
Monday I will teach my first lesson to kids! For the summer, we are placed in teams of four teachers who are responsible for one summer school class. Our class is fifth graders who failed both the math and the reading parts of the CRCT (the test in GA that determines if you move to the next grade) so our job is to teach them as much as we can in essentially 18 days so that they will be able to pass the test. No pressure! The first two weeks I will be team teaching math for 45 minutes each day and the last two weeks I will teach reading every other day for 90 minutes. Fortunately, I really like my other team teachers and we get along pretty well. I have already heard some horror stories that some of my new friends have experienced with their team.
As far as adult supervision, each team has two main advisers. Our CMA, or Corps Member Advisor, is our advisor on the TFA side. They all have at least two years under their belt, and some have more. My CMA Brooke is great -- so much more approachable than I imagined in the beginning. We also have an FA, or Faculty Advisor, who represents the Atlanta Public Schools. They have been teaching our kids for the past week and they are in the room observing us all day every day, and they are the ones who are legally responsible for the class. Our FA was actually an Atlanta corps member in 2000, so she is all about TFA!
I am being tested and tried more than ever in terms of my flexibility. My classroom was switched, my teaching assignment was switched, and then my specific lessons were switched after I had already planned them. Let's just say, I have cried a lot this week and been frustrated beyond belief. But I am trying to keep positive. It's not always easy when you're runnin on empty though.
So tomorrow, we conquer fractions and word problems. It is amazing to me how difficult it is to teach 5th grade. You think it can't be that hard, because it is all basic information at this point. The problem is that it is so basic that I don't even know how to explain how to do some things! I mean, I know how to simplify a fraction -- but what are the rules for why you do that? And what is the process? It's quite a challenge!
Speaking of challenges -- my sweet kids are so far behind. We did reading assessments last week for them, and even though I knew what I should expect it still surprised me. My 5th graders are on kindergarten and first grade reading levels. So even if they can do the math involved in a word problem, they don't have the skills to comprehend what the question is asking them to do. It will certainly be interesting.
That's about all for right now. I am excited and a little bit terrified for tomorrow when I actually stand up and am in charge of a classroom. Who knew that a bunch of 5th graders could be so intimidating?? I'll be excited when making a lesson plan doesn't take me 4 hours. And when I can get my rough draft of my lesson plan back without it being highlighted all over with things to change. Oh well. Baby steps =)
Never has the phrase "Taking it one day at a time" meant so much to me. Here we go...
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Induction!
So I'm here!! I arrived at Induction on Tuesday. For the few people reading this who might not know, Induction is basically like Orientation to Atlanta. We have been fairly busy/scheduled so far, but it has also been somewhat laid back with lots of socials and such planned. A little run down of what has happened so far..
Tuesday -- We checked in and moved into our dorm room. We then met our Transition Team, which is led by our Transition Team Leader Justin. The point of a TT is that we have a 2008 Atlanta Corps member who is basically like our camp counselor and is helping to transition us into Atlanta. Justin has been great -- and I really like the people in my TT. After we met our TT, we headed to an hour of formal mingling with the group, followed by our Welcome Reception/Dinner. I have to say, if I was not pumped up about this cause and the work I will be doing beforehand, the Welcome Dinner certainly did that job. It was exciting hearing from various older corps members in various stages of their commitment (already finished and moved on, just completing their two years, and in the middle of their commitment). Hearing their stories and having people tell us what a great group we are was very exciting. I think that was it for our scheduled activities on Tuesday...
Wednesday -- The morning was filled with various sessions on what TFA looks like in Atlanta, what the achievement gap looks like here, and also about certification and getting hired in Atlanta. The statistics they gave us about the achievement gap were staggering. We definitely have a lot of work to do -- and I'm not sure we all knew how bad it would be. At a later time I'll be posting about my feelings about the achievement gap. The other good thing that came from yesterday morning was they discussed getting hired and being placed. Ruben promised us that 100% of us would be placed by the first day of school, and that of course they were doing their best to get us placed much sooner than that.
The afternoon was set aside for interviews with principals. Basically, all the principals from the schools that TFA is going into come to interview us. It was a lot like I would imagine speed dating is -- they were set up all around the room, and when it was your scheduled time to meet with someone you went and found them and sat at their table. You only had ten minutes for your interview, and someone was yelling out "Two minute warning!" and "This block is now over, your interview is complete!" It was a little overwhelming -- and VERY hot. I was only scheduled for two interviews, both for middle schools. However, one of the school's representative did not show up, so I actually only interviewed with one. I became nervous that I had so few interviews, when my roommates were going to 4, 5, or even 6 interviews. After I spoke to someone though, they seemed to have the impression that the more interviews you had meant the harder time they were having placing you. Justin, my TT Leader, did not even interview last year because he was already placed. I guess we will see! I'm also hoping that the fact that I am one of the few special ed teachers (and there is such a great need for spec ed teachers they tell us) will mean that I will also be placed faster. Here's hoping!
We spent dinner last night at Justin's apartment where he cooked for us and we all hung out together as a TT. Like I said, I am really enjoying getting to know those people. We all come from various places, and we are a pretty diverse group, so it has been very interesting!
Thursday -- Today we spent ALL DAY at the Atlanta Public Schools headquarters doing all kinds of "New Hire" orientations and even more paperwork. Lots of different people came to talk to us about all the various aspects -- benefits, salary, computers (we all are assigned a brand new laptop for our entire career with APS!), etc. Again, it was somewhat overwhelming. Trying to figure out my paperwork for my taxes and determining how to answer other various and similar questions was difficult. I guess I really am part of the grown up world now. We also were fingerprinted and put into their system, and took our pictures for the badges we will receive once they have placed us. It is starting to feel more and more real, that's for sure.
Tonight we have another dinner with a panel of speakers to listen to, and then another social activity. Tomorrow we have sessions all throughout the day, and then a barbecue hosted by TFA alums. Saturday is more sessions, a social for just the Special Ed people, our final dinner, and then a Braves game! On Sunday, all of the other regions will arrive and begin Institute. After that, the real stuff begins!!
This was long, but I haven't really talked to anyone so I wanted to catch you guys up. I love you and want you to know I am really enjoying everything in Atlanta so far!!!
Tuesday -- We checked in and moved into our dorm room. We then met our Transition Team, which is led by our Transition Team Leader Justin. The point of a TT is that we have a 2008 Atlanta Corps member who is basically like our camp counselor and is helping to transition us into Atlanta. Justin has been great -- and I really like the people in my TT. After we met our TT, we headed to an hour of formal mingling with the group, followed by our Welcome Reception/Dinner. I have to say, if I was not pumped up about this cause and the work I will be doing beforehand, the Welcome Dinner certainly did that job. It was exciting hearing from various older corps members in various stages of their commitment (already finished and moved on, just completing their two years, and in the middle of their commitment). Hearing their stories and having people tell us what a great group we are was very exciting. I think that was it for our scheduled activities on Tuesday...
Wednesday -- The morning was filled with various sessions on what TFA looks like in Atlanta, what the achievement gap looks like here, and also about certification and getting hired in Atlanta. The statistics they gave us about the achievement gap were staggering. We definitely have a lot of work to do -- and I'm not sure we all knew how bad it would be. At a later time I'll be posting about my feelings about the achievement gap. The other good thing that came from yesterday morning was they discussed getting hired and being placed. Ruben promised us that 100% of us would be placed by the first day of school, and that of course they were doing their best to get us placed much sooner than that.
The afternoon was set aside for interviews with principals. Basically, all the principals from the schools that TFA is going into come to interview us. It was a lot like I would imagine speed dating is -- they were set up all around the room, and when it was your scheduled time to meet with someone you went and found them and sat at their table. You only had ten minutes for your interview, and someone was yelling out "Two minute warning!" and "This block is now over, your interview is complete!" It was a little overwhelming -- and VERY hot. I was only scheduled for two interviews, both for middle schools. However, one of the school's representative did not show up, so I actually only interviewed with one. I became nervous that I had so few interviews, when my roommates were going to 4, 5, or even 6 interviews. After I spoke to someone though, they seemed to have the impression that the more interviews you had meant the harder time they were having placing you. Justin, my TT Leader, did not even interview last year because he was already placed. I guess we will see! I'm also hoping that the fact that I am one of the few special ed teachers (and there is such a great need for spec ed teachers they tell us) will mean that I will also be placed faster. Here's hoping!
We spent dinner last night at Justin's apartment where he cooked for us and we all hung out together as a TT. Like I said, I am really enjoying getting to know those people. We all come from various places, and we are a pretty diverse group, so it has been very interesting!
Thursday -- Today we spent ALL DAY at the Atlanta Public Schools headquarters doing all kinds of "New Hire" orientations and even more paperwork. Lots of different people came to talk to us about all the various aspects -- benefits, salary, computers (we all are assigned a brand new laptop for our entire career with APS!), etc. Again, it was somewhat overwhelming. Trying to figure out my paperwork for my taxes and determining how to answer other various and similar questions was difficult. I guess I really am part of the grown up world now. We also were fingerprinted and put into their system, and took our pictures for the badges we will receive once they have placed us. It is starting to feel more and more real, that's for sure.
Tonight we have another dinner with a panel of speakers to listen to, and then another social activity. Tomorrow we have sessions all throughout the day, and then a barbecue hosted by TFA alums. Saturday is more sessions, a social for just the Special Ed people, our final dinner, and then a Braves game! On Sunday, all of the other regions will arrive and begin Institute. After that, the real stuff begins!!
This was long, but I haven't really talked to anyone so I wanted to catch you guys up. I love you and want you to know I am really enjoying everything in Atlanta so far!!!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Lots of questions
In case you're wondering, I move to Atlanta in 17 days! Everything has flown by so quickly, so I am beginning to get very anxious about everything thats going on. This week I set up a call with my "SpEd" program director, AB. She is great! I was feeling so overwhelmed. For most people, they have been much more narrowed down in their possibilities for what they may teach. If you're certified in high school math, you teach high school math. However, if you're certified in SpEd, at this point you could be teaching any grade level and any subject. You might have your own classroom or you might share with another teacher. So I called to get a better idea of what I might be doing and what SpEd looks like in Atlanta. I'm definitely glad that I did. She told me that I will most likely be teaching secondary (middle and high school). She also said that the majority of her teachers are either in their own classroom teaching a specific subject just like any other teacher, but with only SpEd students. Or, they team teach but only do so in a certain subject.
She also said many reassuring words about how much faith and confidence she has in me, that she remembered me from my interview and at the time was thrilled at the possibility of me coming to Atlanta and teaching SpEd. So that certainly made me feel better =) Unfortunately, she also talked about how every year there are teachers who do not get placed in their schools until the first or second week of class. Talk about learning patience and flexibility. When God decides to test you, He sure doesn't like to do it in baby steps!! This is more like WHAM! But I accept the challenge!
The other thing I am struggling with right now is all of the diversity education they give us. All of the texts and readings we are assigned are a little overwhelming (I'm working on being patient and knowing that in just a few weeks it will all start to come together -- but its not exactly my style to not know exactly whats going on). But the toughest right now is the diversity part. It brings to mind lots of things, and is something that I struggle with the more I read. I guess thats the point of reading all of it -- for us to look hard at racism/prejudices we carry, whether consciously or unconsciously, but it certainly doesn't leave you feeling all warm and fuzzy inside.
I think and pray for the students that I will have next year on a regular basis. I wonder where they are and what they are doing, what they are struggling with right now, who is on your side and who is making my job harder by telling them they can't do something... I ask God to send me the ones that need the most help, to send me challenging ones that He and I can reach together. I want my kids to know that they are important, that they are special, that someone believes in them, and that they can do anything they want to. I hope that is what I instill in them -- and that we move them up in grade levels at the same time!
She also said many reassuring words about how much faith and confidence she has in me, that she remembered me from my interview and at the time was thrilled at the possibility of me coming to Atlanta and teaching SpEd. So that certainly made me feel better =) Unfortunately, she also talked about how every year there are teachers who do not get placed in their schools until the first or second week of class. Talk about learning patience and flexibility. When God decides to test you, He sure doesn't like to do it in baby steps!! This is more like WHAM! But I accept the challenge!
The other thing I am struggling with right now is all of the diversity education they give us. All of the texts and readings we are assigned are a little overwhelming (I'm working on being patient and knowing that in just a few weeks it will all start to come together -- but its not exactly my style to not know exactly whats going on). But the toughest right now is the diversity part. It brings to mind lots of things, and is something that I struggle with the more I read. I guess thats the point of reading all of it -- for us to look hard at racism/prejudices we carry, whether consciously or unconsciously, but it certainly doesn't leave you feeling all warm and fuzzy inside.
I think and pray for the students that I will have next year on a regular basis. I wonder where they are and what they are doing, what they are struggling with right now, who is on your side and who is making my job harder by telling them they can't do something... I ask God to send me the ones that need the most help, to send me challenging ones that He and I can reach together. I want my kids to know that they are important, that they are special, that someone believes in them, and that they can do anything they want to. I hope that is what I instill in them -- and that we move them up in grade levels at the same time!
Monday, May 11, 2009
Uh oh..
So, after all the excitement of the weekend (I'm an Auburn Alum!!!) I was struck with a pretty tough blow this morning when I checked out the TFA*Atlanta facebook group. Check out this ..
I am not sure what this completely means for me.. It will be interesting to find out what happens with this in Atlanta and what TFA does about it.
I hate my graduation parade being rained on =(
I am not sure what this completely means for me.. It will be interesting to find out what happens with this in Atlanta and what TFA does about it.
I hate my graduation parade being rained on =(
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Some interesting things..
Online today I found some (at least what I thought to be) really interesting articles and such about TFA. Just thought that I would share.
http://online.wsj.com/article/SB124061253951954349.html
http://blog.nola.com/reneepeck/2009/03/unexpected_things_can_happen_w.html
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=58111303066&ref=mf
I really hope that last link to the video works -- I finally got more information about what institute will be like.
I also really like the quote for today:
"I know God will not give me anything I cannot handle. I just wish that He did not trust me so much." -- Mother Teresa
That is a feeling I have had a lot lately. You could also say that I wish that TFA didn't trust me so much! Hopefully, I wont let anyone down! It's getting closer and closer.. and more and more real..
http://online.wsj.com/article/SB124061253951954349.html
http://blog.nola.com/reneepeck/2009/03/unexpected_things_can_happen_w.html
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=58111303066&ref=mf
I really hope that last link to the video works -- I finally got more information about what institute will be like.
I also really like the quote for today:
"I know God will not give me anything I cannot handle. I just wish that He did not trust me so much." -- Mother Teresa
That is a feeling I have had a lot lately. You could also say that I wish that TFA didn't trust me so much! Hopefully, I wont let anyone down! It's getting closer and closer.. and more and more real..
Monday, April 27, 2009
I passed!!!!
GACE Special Ed General Curriculum -- TAKE THAT!!!
I don't know how, I'm fairly suprised, but apparently everyone felt as ill-prepared as I did in March. I passed both of my General tests!! I'm still somewhat in shock. I guess studying on the cruise ship really helped!
So thats another notch to check off on my "Becoming a Teacher" To-Do List! Next is.. graduate! Which is coming up so quickly I can hardly believe it.
Official countdown (I'm not sure what makes it official...)
Days until my last final = 9!
Days until graduation = 12!
Days until regional induction = 36!
Days until Institute = 41!
Days until school = 105!!!!!!!
I know some of those are silly to already be thinking about, but it wasn't too long ago that graduation was months away, and now its only a few days away. It's hard to believe that so much hard work is about to pay off. And so much hard work hasn't even begun yet. I need to get back to my TFA pre-institute work, unfortunately finals are getting in the way right now. Nine more days and then I'll be able to completely devote myself to TFA.
Holy cow... this is really happening!!!!
I don't know how, I'm fairly suprised, but apparently everyone felt as ill-prepared as I did in March. I passed both of my General tests!! I'm still somewhat in shock. I guess studying on the cruise ship really helped!
So thats another notch to check off on my "Becoming a Teacher" To-Do List! Next is.. graduate! Which is coming up so quickly I can hardly believe it.
Official countdown (I'm not sure what makes it official...)
Days until my last final = 9!
Days until graduation = 12!
Days until regional induction = 36!
Days until Institute = 41!
Days until school = 105!!!!!!!
I know some of those are silly to already be thinking about, but it wasn't too long ago that graduation was months away, and now its only a few days away. It's hard to believe that so much hard work is about to pay off. And so much hard work hasn't even begun yet. I need to get back to my TFA pre-institute work, unfortunately finals are getting in the way right now. Nine more days and then I'll be able to completely devote myself to TFA.
Holy cow... this is really happening!!!!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
I have begun my pre-institute work that I have to complete before I get to Atlanta in June. I have eight different lessons I have to work on, and each requires written responses from me. I will most likely post those on here so that I can not only keep up with them but also so that I can keep track of my progress. Today, I began my first reading, "Teaching as Leaders: Ms. Lora's Story." There are many things that I can comment on so far about what I have read of her experiences, but this one struck me the most so far. Here is an excerpt which discusses a phone call she had with her father after her first day of school:
I think it is interesting what different experiences she and I had upon making the decision for TFA. Of course, my parents worry about me being in an unsafe area or moving to a new place, but no one ever doubted me being a teacher. I don't know how I would have gotten this far, or how I would get through the next two years, if I didn't have so much support: from my family, my friends, Zach, the camp staff, everyone. I have no idea what I will do after my two year commitment, but it is certainly nice to know that I have such a huge support system to get me through this step and every other step in my life.
And every time he did it, she smiled too. They both understood that by calling her “Ms. Lora,” Aurora’s father was lightly teasing her but also signaling his approval of her decision, and his disapproval of all of those who thought the idea was crazy.
Ms. Lora could not count the number of strange looks she received—ranging from the merely quizzical to the blatantly disapproving—when she told friends, relatives, colleagues, professors, and employers that she was going to teach. The idea that Aurora should use her own academic achievement and budding leadership skills to work toward raising others’ seemed absurd to many, and actively distasteful to some. “Have you thought about law school?” “Or grad school?” “Didn’t you want to be a doctor?” “But you can do anything you want to do. . .” Ms. Lora had endured the subtle and not-so-subtle disapproval of her decisions, telling herself that those short-sighted, but supposedly well-intended, comments only further validated her decision. Her father’s smile-laced “Ms. Lora” was a welcome reassurance that she had made the right decision.
I think it is interesting what different experiences she and I had upon making the decision for TFA. Of course, my parents worry about me being in an unsafe area or moving to a new place, but no one ever doubted me being a teacher. I don't know how I would have gotten this far, or how I would get through the next two years, if I didn't have so much support: from my family, my friends, Zach, the camp staff, everyone. I have no idea what I will do after my two year commitment, but it is certainly nice to know that I have such a huge support system to get me through this step and every other step in my life.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
done with my test!
So this post has taken me a while to finish, but I have been trying to organize all my thoughts on this.
Saturday I took my certification test for Special Education, the General Curriculum. The two tests were only my first round -- once I know where I am working and a more specific idea of my teaching assignment I will then take my specific tests. The test was quite a frustrating experience. First, I don't remember the last time that I studied so hard for something. Unfortunately, the book that is meant to be a study guide is poorly written and was not at all an adequate preparation for the test. I am hoping that my knowledge from my psychology classes were enough of a compensation of information. I am also hoping that everyone else taking it felt as poorly prepared as I did. I do not mean to be bitter, I am just frustrated and will be beyond embarrassed if I fail my first certification test. That is not the impression I would like to give TFA.
I get more and more honored by my selection to the TFA Corps the more I learn about it. Someone recently told me that their acceptance rate is about 13%. WOW! I have also discovered, as I learn more about my other corps members, that I am a part of a very accomplished group. Many of the other Atlanta Corps members come from Ivy League schools and are significant leaders on their campuses, in various organizations. At times, I am very overwhelmed by the responsibilities I have as a member of this group.
I am also frequently overwhelmed by the responsibilities I have as a teacher and specifically as a special education teacher. I am struggling to constantly remind myself that God has gotten me this far, and that he will continue to help me through this. I also have to remind myself that TFA would not have chosen me for this if they didn't think that I could handle it. I need a better way to calm myself down. I need a better way to let go of things and trust. I can't have a plan for everything. I can't always have the answer or any answer. I am so excited about my future and I have to get better at focusing on that part, and the excitement of new challenges, and not be so concerned with all the things that I don't know and that I am afraid of.
"To live in fear is not to live at all." This was just said on the tv as I am finishing this up. Thanks again, God, for reminding me of your presence even in the midst of Desperate Housewives =)
Saturday I took my certification test for Special Education, the General Curriculum. The two tests were only my first round -- once I know where I am working and a more specific idea of my teaching assignment I will then take my specific tests. The test was quite a frustrating experience. First, I don't remember the last time that I studied so hard for something. Unfortunately, the book that is meant to be a study guide is poorly written and was not at all an adequate preparation for the test. I am hoping that my knowledge from my psychology classes were enough of a compensation of information. I am also hoping that everyone else taking it felt as poorly prepared as I did. I do not mean to be bitter, I am just frustrated and will be beyond embarrassed if I fail my first certification test. That is not the impression I would like to give TFA.
I get more and more honored by my selection to the TFA Corps the more I learn about it. Someone recently told me that their acceptance rate is about 13%. WOW! I have also discovered, as I learn more about my other corps members, that I am a part of a very accomplished group. Many of the other Atlanta Corps members come from Ivy League schools and are significant leaders on their campuses, in various organizations. At times, I am very overwhelmed by the responsibilities I have as a member of this group.
I am also frequently overwhelmed by the responsibilities I have as a teacher and specifically as a special education teacher. I am struggling to constantly remind myself that God has gotten me this far, and that he will continue to help me through this. I also have to remind myself that TFA would not have chosen me for this if they didn't think that I could handle it. I need a better way to calm myself down. I need a better way to let go of things and trust. I can't have a plan for everything. I can't always have the answer or any answer. I am so excited about my future and I have to get better at focusing on that part, and the excitement of new challenges, and not be so concerned with all the things that I don't know and that I am afraid of.
"To live in fear is not to live at all." This was just said on the tv as I am finishing this up. Thanks again, God, for reminding me of your presence even in the midst of Desperate Housewives =)
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
My next step..
So I wanted to start this blog to try and gather and keep up with all of my thoughts as I am getting ready to move on, graduate, and start a new chapter in my life. I think it will be somewhat therapeutic and helpful in managing all the craziness that I am expecting...
I am thrilled by the opportunity that I have been given through Teach for America. However, the more and more I learn about what I have gotten myself into the more nervous I become. I am worried that I won't be prepared for this, that I will let my kids down or myself down, or even TFA down. I try to compare this to CWE, thinking that I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I interviewed for CC or when I accepted the job as HCC. But staff new exactly what they were doing, and they prepared me for just about every thing I needed to handle the job. Anything they didn't specifically prepare me for I was still able to handle because of all the other tools I was given. I would like to think that this is how teaching will be. I am eagerly anticipating beginning Summer Institute because then I will (hopefully) finally feel like I am being prepared for the job.
I don't mean to sound like I am not confident in myself. I think I would be feeling like this no matter what job I was headed for. I am very grateful to even have a job and to know somewhat of where I am going.. But as I study for the GACE which I will take this weekend, I feel like there is way more information that I DON'T know than there is what I DO know. I haven't studied this hard for something in a really long time! My brain doesn't even know how to handle it anymore! I will be glad when the test is over and I can begin focusing more on the information that TFA gave me to prepare for the Summer Institute.
I think this is all for now.. Just wanted to introduce what I was doing and get some things off of my chest!
I am thrilled by the opportunity that I have been given through Teach for America. However, the more and more I learn about what I have gotten myself into the more nervous I become. I am worried that I won't be prepared for this, that I will let my kids down or myself down, or even TFA down. I try to compare this to CWE, thinking that I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I interviewed for CC or when I accepted the job as HCC. But staff new exactly what they were doing, and they prepared me for just about every thing I needed to handle the job. Anything they didn't specifically prepare me for I was still able to handle because of all the other tools I was given. I would like to think that this is how teaching will be. I am eagerly anticipating beginning Summer Institute because then I will (hopefully) finally feel like I am being prepared for the job.
I don't mean to sound like I am not confident in myself. I think I would be feeling like this no matter what job I was headed for. I am very grateful to even have a job and to know somewhat of where I am going.. But as I study for the GACE which I will take this weekend, I feel like there is way more information that I DON'T know than there is what I DO know. I haven't studied this hard for something in a really long time! My brain doesn't even know how to handle it anymore! I will be glad when the test is over and I can begin focusing more on the information that TFA gave me to prepare for the Summer Institute.
I think this is all for now.. Just wanted to introduce what I was doing and get some things off of my chest!
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