I thought it was kind of fun to post song lyrics in my last post. And because music is such a part of my life, I thought I would continue with it...
As I stated, my life has been an exaggerated level of chaos the last two weeks. Seven laptops were stolen from our computer cart, which was sitting in my classroom, on Monday night. Despite locking the cart and locking the door. Unfortunately, the teacher whose room connects to ours left his door unlocked. So students broke in after school, stole the computers, and then sold them. Fortunately, they were dumb enough to sell them to a student who told his aunt, who let us know about them. So we recovered two. However, I still spent the majority of the day filing a police report, watching security cameras, and building up my courage to tell my principal about the situation. On top of all that, I find out that one of the students who is being accused is the student I TRUSTED to be our COMPUTER MANAGER. I am so disappointed. It makes me feel hurt that he would misuse my trust and it makes me feel stupid that I trusted him in the first place after being told not to.
Among other things, I have had students who we discovered were in the middle of domestic disputes in the last two weeks, students in the hospital for doing harm to themselves, and students who have lost a parent or a best friend. All in the last two weeks.
I'm burnt out. I am emotionally spent. I need a vacation. I am quick to lose my patience with my students, when the entire purpose of a Special Education teacher is to be more patient than others. I am quick to snap, quicker to yell, and quickest to cry. I am at my complete breaking point.
Yesterday afternoon I was sent a Godly message. A friend of mine, really a mere "Facebook friend," posted a Bible verse as her status that reminded me of an amazing song. I am often the type of person who focuses less on God during the good times and more on God during the hard times, as many other people do. So He has completely brought me to my knees in the last few weeks. This has happened in my life before, when I have drifted too far away. So I can only believe that He has brought me here to bring me back to Him. Bless you, Father, I am coming back.
About five years ago, if not more, I was familiarized with the idea of "breath prayers." The idea is that you have a short phrase (just one deep breath), which generally stands for so much more, that you can repeat throughout the day to connect you back to God and remind yourself of whatever it is you need to be reminded of. Yesterday, I adopted a new breath prayer. So for the next few days/weeks/months/however long it takes, my daily breath prayer will be "No weapon," based on the song of the same title...
As I stated, my life has been an exaggerated level of chaos the last two weeks. Seven laptops were stolen from our computer cart, which was sitting in my classroom, on Monday night. Despite locking the cart and locking the door. Unfortunately, the teacher whose room connects to ours left his door unlocked. So students broke in after school, stole the computers, and then sold them. Fortunately, they were dumb enough to sell them to a student who told his aunt, who let us know about them. So we recovered two. However, I still spent the majority of the day filing a police report, watching security cameras, and building up my courage to tell my principal about the situation. On top of all that, I find out that one of the students who is being accused is the student I TRUSTED to be our COMPUTER MANAGER. I am so disappointed. It makes me feel hurt that he would misuse my trust and it makes me feel stupid that I trusted him in the first place after being told not to.
Among other things, I have had students who we discovered were in the middle of domestic disputes in the last two weeks, students in the hospital for doing harm to themselves, and students who have lost a parent or a best friend. All in the last two weeks.
I'm burnt out. I am emotionally spent. I need a vacation. I am quick to lose my patience with my students, when the entire purpose of a Special Education teacher is to be more patient than others. I am quick to snap, quicker to yell, and quickest to cry. I am at my complete breaking point.
Yesterday afternoon I was sent a Godly message. A friend of mine, really a mere "Facebook friend," posted a Bible verse as her status that reminded me of an amazing song. I am often the type of person who focuses less on God during the good times and more on God during the hard times, as many other people do. So He has completely brought me to my knees in the last few weeks. This has happened in my life before, when I have drifted too far away. So I can only believe that He has brought me here to bring me back to Him. Bless you, Father, I am coming back.
About five years ago, if not more, I was familiarized with the idea of "breath prayers." The idea is that you have a short phrase (just one deep breath), which generally stands for so much more, that you can repeat throughout the day to connect you back to God and remind yourself of whatever it is you need to be reminded of. Yesterday, I adopted a new breath prayer. So for the next few days/weeks/months/however long it takes, my daily breath prayer will be "No weapon," based on the song of the same title...
No Weapon, by Fred Hammond
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work (4x)
God will do what He say He would do
He will stand by His word and He will come through
God will do what He say He would do
He will stand by His word and He will come through
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work (2x)
God will do what He said He would do
He’s not a man that He should lie, He will come through
God will do what He said He would do
He will stand by His word, He will come through
Oh I won’t be afraid of the arrows by day from the hand of my enemy
I can stand my ground with the Lord on my side for the snares they have set will not succeed
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work (2x)
For I Know God will do what He said He's gonna do
He will stand by his word, He will come through
God will do what He said He's gonna do, stand by his word
He will stand by His word and He will come through
God will do what He say He would do
He will stand by His word and He will come through
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work (2x)
God will do what He said He would do
He’s not a man that He should lie, He will come through
God will do what He said He would do
He will stand by His word, He will come through
Oh I won’t be afraid of the arrows by day from the hand of my enemy
I can stand my ground with the Lord on my side for the snares they have set will not succeed
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work (2x)
For I Know God will do what He said He's gonna do
He will stand by his word, He will come through
God will do what He said He's gonna do, stand by his word
NO NO NO WAY!
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work (2x)
It won't work
It won't work
Dont be afraid of the arrows or the snares set by your enemies if you believe it say oo
There just aint one, there just aint one weapon
Although they've set a snare and a trap I want you to know it won't work oh no no no
Although they've set a snare and a trap I want you to know it won't work oh no no no
